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i see hope again
i'm laughin' loud in a crowd of new friends
yeah i feel social once again
talkin' is easy, i'm extendin' my limbs
these folks are forgetful but i'll forgive 'em
'cuz i'm not important and that is my sin
some things are hard to leave to rest
some things are harder to forget
like the rubber bands taut in my chest
oh but i know pretty girls don't light their own cigarettes
i'm out of work again
i've got time but no money to spend
so i'll hit the streets once again
i wheel and i deal, and i dance with the wind
i wanted to thank you for lettin' me in
'cuz i am a dog, drippin' with shit
some things are hard to leave to rest
some things are harder to forget
like the rubber bands taut in my chest
oh but i know pretty girls don't light their own cigarettes
no pretty girls never light their own cigarettes
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another boy who doesn't care
another bore but i still stare
voice is low, drips through the air
chest is broad with wiry hair
if i could just lay my head there
if i could just lay my head there...
another girl with fabric hair
another artifice au pair
she's got jewels, so debonair
armed with tattoos and a soulful flair
and now i see her everywhere
now i see her everywhere...
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well all the apostles
they're sittin' in swings
sayin' "i'd sell off my savior
for a set of new rings
and some sandals
with the style
of straps
that cling best to the era"
so all of the bussinessers
in their unlimited hell
where they buy and they sell
and they sell
all their trash
to each other
but they're sick of it all
and they're bankrupt on sellin'
and all of the angels
they'd sell off your soul
for a set of new wings
and anything gold
they remember
the people
they loved
their old friends
and i've seen through 'em all
seen through 'em all
seen through most everything
all the people you knew were the actors
all the people you knew were the actors
well i'll go to college
and i'll learn some big words
and i'll talk real loud
goddamn right i'll be heard
they'll remember the guy
that said all them big words
he must've learned in college
and it took a long time
but i've come clean with myself
i come clean out of love
with my lover
i still love her
loved her more
when she used to be sober
and i was kinder
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the store was out of reds
well, i guess i'm stayin' in bed
no i won't pick up the phone
y'know it's best to leave me alone
when i'm without my nicotine
i turn into a fiend
a fiend
why won't it ever leave
i can't move no i can't breathe
not without that cravin' rush
no i just can't get enough
it's a hunger i can't control
no i'm never growin' old
old
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5. |
song fer margles
03:02
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oh margeaux you got them big green eyes
i know you worry you talk too much but i don't mind
you make me smile when i don't want to
yeah i guess you could say you pick me up when i'm blue
all these cliches just to say i think i really like you
i wrote this song for you 'cuz i'm fuckin' broke
but you deserve somethin' sweeter than cherry smoke
i love your laugh and that crook in your nose
the way your face lights up is contagious and it shows
that you are one of the sweetest people i have ever known
i wanted to say that you help me feel less afraid
and i don't care when we're hangin' out and stayin' up too late
work is stupid and i won't go anyway
let's just stay in bed and wish the world away
we're at the end of this song i wrote for you
i hope it helps you understand how i think of you
and maybe one day i'll play this song for a million fans or two
but it won't mean shit to me if i can't sing to you
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i never said that we weren't friends
but i can't have you comin' over again
i know i've been a bit austere
border on the rash and severe
it's best if i don't answer my phone
and leave you alone
i'm on the el in full majestics
climb out a window or craft fresh hysterics
i know it's a bit much to bare
the people on the street always stare
they know i'm drunk or halfway stoned
leave me alone
an apology song
for something i didn't know was wrong
but retrospect
demands a second check
i'm sorry
this is all of me
i'm sorry
i don't know how to be
i'm sorry
i always sing off key
i'm sorry
i'm sorry
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7. |
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change
people don't change
people don't change when you want them to
oh change
people don't change
you still got a lot of drugs to do
oh change
people don't change
people don't change when you want them to
yeah i
i looked the wrong way
crossin' a one way street that day
oh it's like i'll accept
regret's a paradise
regret's a paradise
no dice
you don't have to shake your fists
'cuz change
people don't change
people don't change when you want them to
oh more
children it's more
so much more than you can do
so much and so many
savin' up your shiny pennies
all my wishin' pennies
have made up my mind
all my wishin' pennies
made up my mind
down in depths of the friendliest sea
i found myself i was followin' me
down in the depths of the friendliest sea
i found me
yeah change
people don't change
people don't change when you want them to
yeah i
i looked the wrong way
crossin' a one way street that day
oh it's like i'll accept
regret's a paradise
regret's a paradise
no dice
you don't have to shake your fists
cause change, people don't change...
you still got a lot of drugs to do
you got a lot of drugs
you got a lot of drugs to do
got a lot of drugs...
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she
sleeps next to me
layin' still in soft purple sheets
and now i watch the changing of leaves
out the window over her head
out the window over her bed
stay asleep
i'll turn off the tv
let's enjoy this morning in peace
and i swore i heard you mumble in your sleep
i wish i could spend all my time in bed
now that's a thought still burnt into my head
but that's make believe
or a faux reprieve
how are you lyin' in those sheets
when you got a world to see
was i too naive
did you need more time to grieve
i didn't mean to be so mean
but please speak to me
now i always
drink my coffee black
drinkin' wine
like some kind of goddamn aristocrat
smokin' too much
just bought another pack
and the other morning i thought of you
i was lyin' on my back
lookin' out the window
over my bed
into an alley
dry and dead
i'm sorry i pushed away
but I don’t think i should’ve stayed
you were feeling so far away
but still in my dreams you say
“meet me in a beautiful place
on a crisp autumn day
on a bridge up northside way
spanning industrial decay”
so i went to that place
in a cold november rain
and i swore i saw your face
in the graffiti on a train
there ain’t no bridge in this town
that ain’t worth walking down
that ain’t somewhere rough and tumble
and gets you yearnin’ for uptown
but alone it’s not the same
are these tears or is this rain?
i miss her tossing in her sleep
and that symposium of leaves
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half past noon and we rise in a haze
ain't seen straight in three fuckin' days
these walls are gray and they whisper my name
if i don't get out i'll rot all away
inaction has consequence
we'll share the shame
the future is only a game...
glued to the tube as hours slip away
i smoke weed every fucking day
i feel hollow, my mind is abstract
coronation of a new space cadet
but my mind still follows me
i never feel alone
and i never feel at home...
i'm a machine
i am wrought
with decay
i break
down
every
other
day
my mind is wires
frayed at
contact
speech is
lacking
my limbs are
all slack
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10. |
tenderness [cover]
02:58
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we've come to
replace your clock's
old stubborn hands
(we are the answer to why
they never had a chance)
it was not so long ago
that the world was mostly slow
the age of iron, steam, and speed
turned a stroll to a stampede
but we've come
to increase time
in between ticks
'cuz there's romance
in the slow dances
'cuz they're
fertile in hush
futile in haste
these are your nerves
this is how they taste
well i can't count how many times
i've been outdone by nihilism
joined the march that splits
an open heart into a schism
and i cower at the thought
of other people's expectations
and yet still
hand over mine to them
travel where you are
tourism is sin
these are the ruins left behind
you can't take pictures of them
if what they say is true
then you become what you chew
if it decays spit it out
affectation is a drought
that you wait through
when you hate
everything that you do
you wanna live
outside the groove
then fine
but it's there like a flower
blooming in your ears
open up your mouth
pollinate your peers
nothing reminds
the mind of power
like the cheap odor of plastic
leaking fumes we crave
consume the rush
it feels fantastic
but like power turns to mold
like a junkie going cold
i need a fix
of a little tenderness
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11. |
"implicit importance"
02:59
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so this is the screaming across the sky––
from the other side, a canister lobbed forth
by an assailant unknown with sleek
silver sides interrupted only by bold
blue lettering, yet in this stream its color
is lost as a glint in the sunshine, arch of smoke
its monotonous rainbow. So this is the
gravity, the five zeros, the rocket obfuscated
by itself, a plot device to render any end
recursive, and one would think it’d
have more heft: more of a V2, a Tiananmen
tank, a thing undeniable and indelible, but
it’s the minutiae and unspoken and unseen
that disrupts deepest the tranquility of any scene.
three weeks later, it’s still a struggle to breathe.
fifty-nine years ago, in his French admonition
and Algerian call to attention, Frantz Fanon
laid it raw & bare with cerebral prescience:
any and all acts of violence on a people
will be met with an eventual & equal
display of force.
Newtonian & Draconian in his language & logic,
his Marxist conclusion proves itself again & again:
a violent system breeds a violent collapse.
so we’ve returned to the total disruption
of the system, lobbying again against an
archaic government, home of the oldest
constitution in the world, imbued now
with a million silver canisters––those
systemic microcosms of problematic
thought that remain impenetrable by
their very nature of diminution and
their slippery, silvery sheen
that only in their full & relentless
deployment can anyone catch hold
of––the violence inherent in each little
silver-plated nugget tossed ‘round
damn near daily, imperceptible
when it doesn’t affect every homestead
yet incorrigibly present where it does.
defund the schools, close the polling booths,
gerrymander all the public housing
in one serpentine district, tank the credit
of those tenants so they can never escape,
all the while bolstering some lucky fuck
that beat the system just to say: “well,
if they can do it, why can’t you?”
so we’ll return to the screaming
as it comes across the sky:
“it has happened before, but there is
nothing to compare it to now. it is too late.”
and where Pynchon and Fanon meet is
here, at the beginning and the end:
a silver arch, a rainbow monochrome,
as it inches us closer and closer to a total overthrow.
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horse head nebula of seaweed and strife
floatin' in the water, ain't it divine?
it's alright
now i'll go ahead admit i've had a little to drink
stars are gettin' sloppy and i don't want to think
but it's alright
'cuz oh
nothin's gonna change
the stars above
are gonna stay the same
everything's
gonna stay the same
no
nothin's gonna change
pillars of creation all drawn in the sand
lips are movin' but i don't understand
but it's alright
gettin' intimate with a cold kitchen sink
i'm spinnin' with the planets, i'm on the brink
but it's alright
'cuz oh
nothin's gonna change
same old friends
with the same old pains
everyday
feels a bit the same
no
nothin's gonna change
no
it ain't gonna change
oh
won't ever change
'cuz everyday i wake up
and the sunlight feels the same
and the alley out my window
ain't no buffer against the rain
on clearer nights i see the moon
in its new ouroboros state
it was full last you left me
now it's circled back again
but oh
it don't ever change
stars and moon
still shine the same
no
won't ever change
oh
you sat next to me
right to my left
then you got the best of me
and i hollered theft
but you started talkin' around
made sure everyone knows
that i ain't gonna see ya again
happened so quickly
(well, not in retrospect)
but i couldn't get my feet beneath
and had no eyes for suspect
but no holmes needed
now you've told me quite straight
that i ain't gonna see ya again
sometimes i'm walkin' down the street
you're on your porch and i'm right outside
i'm stuck across the street and i wanna die
this shakespearean shit's
left me all bereft
of any conclusion
i could expect
but you took my thinkin'
turned my head to my toes
and now i ain't gonna see ya again
yeah that's all there is
that i've come to know
no more seein' you
no more you comin' to shows
so i'll stick to the cards
and the old tarot cards
and i ain't gonna see ya again
no i ain't gonna see ya again
(but when could i see ya again?)
circled back again to the same old shit
nothin' short of a comet's gonna break this orbit
it's alright
yeah we're holdin' on along the same old line
me and my whiskey, we're doin' fine
it's alright
and oh
nothin's gonna change
the stars above
gonna stay the same
everyday
feels a bit the same
everything
best stay the same
let yourself have a moment or two
you’ve got time but nothing to do
get a new job, or go back to school
yeah, the world’s on fire but what can you do?
there will always
be people
who try to
control you
try to
annul you, your
intentions and
your passions
that’s just
distractions
and toxic
trash refractions
it’s endless
but it’s better
to focus and
tell me how you feel
now I’ve had my moment to stew
ripped up my plans and drafted some new
it’s hard sometimes to finish my art
it’s all I can do to keep from falling apart
these people
relentless
driven by
directives
never outright
perspectives
so we need
a few detectives
to keep it
open
hold back
erosion
but the words
are easy to string together
the backslide is real
the sky's gone gray again
said something wrong, gone're all of my friends
but i'll move on, criss cross, head somewhere fair
beacause there's nowhere to go but everywhere
and the shadows howl to me while i roam alone
"you don't have to stay, but you can't ever go home"
but i'll be alright wherever i am
and we'll all be pretty girls in the end
but oh(oh[oh])
it won't ever change
everything's
gonna stay the same
same old friends
and the same old pains
stars above
are gonna stay the same
no
won't nothin' change
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last address
02:13
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this is the last night she will sleep alone
another message runs through her telephone
morning dew won't wash pain away
late night sins are here to stay
in her mouth and in her eyes
and in between her thighs
is this how it feels to die
she calls out for a god
read but no reply
she curls into herself at night
slow and steady sigh
the walls are closing in
so she runs into a dream
but there's nothing in her mind
except for what she's seen
so she crawls over to her god
and holds him to her chest
but before she falls into his world
she writes her last address
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